promote passion

One day (hopefully in three years) I hope to join the Peace Corps. First I need to get my BA and my minor (in spanish). Then hopefully I will be sent to Romania, Kenya or Chile. My biggest fears of going? Not disease or war. The food and bugs, seriously. Now some may say “well maybe you shouldn’t join the Peace Corps,” but if that’s what you are thinking then you do not know me at all. I would do anything to help another person. I am not denying that I would celebrate being sent to a place where the food is edible, but if it came down to eat something that I find unpleasant or transform a persons life- I would certainly transform a persons life. Also, I know there will be no gourmet meals, I am simply talking about the cultures where they eat the stomach of an animal right after killing it straight out of the body to thank their god for the food (its in Africa). This would definitely be a challenge for me. The bugs…I already decided that I am bringing a mosquito net. Multiple mosquito nets- and hopefully I am not sent somewhere with foot-long spiders- although as said before I would embrace it and find some way to put my fears aside. Is it wrong that I am more worried about bugs and food rather than disease and war? I just want to help people.

Recently I feel as though I am being underestimated. I think because I’m somewhat small, female and young it is automatically assumed that I am simply not capable of being strong, independent and successful. Do not misread this as me tying my issues to a larger problem in the world- it is simply why I feel I am underestimated. I believe that I am unstoppable; I have yet to begin the adventure that will be my adult life. I am waiting, thinking and questioning my next step day by day; enjoying life and being analytical as usual- probably too analytical (as usual). But hear me now- I will accomplish all that I want, to those who dare to question my abilities wait and see- you will be proven wrong. I will stop at nothing to get what I want and that is a fact. :)

I will not say that I want to be different; I will say I want to make a difference. Everyone in this world is following each other by trying to be different- but in the end those who I affect, aid and love will look back and say “she is unlike anyone in this world” and I will truly be different. I dont care what others think. You can label me all you want- I will not accept labels nor be torn down by the foolish words of others. Your pathetic judgements passed on me will not determine who I am or who I will be. I know who I am, I know what I want; and that is to change the lives of those unable to help themselves. All I seek in this world is happiness and I will achieve this by giving to others what I can so that they too are able to live the life of happiness that they deserve. In the end if I can accomplish this; if someone, somewhere knows my name and I was able to transform their life I will be satisfied with the life I have lived and die not with regrets, but memories of smiles and epic events that are steps toward a world of utter bliss.

Its late at night when my deep thoughts creep out of my mind & I thought this fit to be my first actual post. :)